Don't cut out my paper heart, I ain't dyin anyway

Fantabulous day here, you? Hope it was great. Did the hoop coach thing this this morning and the popcorn/cookie delivery boy thing this afternoon, after a healthy dose of santa like activity for the most important mom in our lives, we had a great day.

Winter is here, Santa is coming, the hype is on, gotta give, give, give.

Watched ELF with the kids tonight, pretty good, my kids liked it.

So, I didn't enjoy hoop very much Friday, three items caused my temporary dismay, one; I was out late at a local brewery, two, I ate too much salty pistachio, last I had to play against a kid twenty years younger than me, who played in University, he kicks my ass every time, wish I'd taken care of him twenty years ago when I held, him as a newborn,just kidding, it's the way it's supposed to be, I've realized that and am just happy to be un-sedentary.

So, is it possible to truly change ones self? How can you tell? Isn't it really a judgement call based on feedback from others? I suppose that if you haven't seen someone in a long time they may think you have really changed, but does someone who sees you every day feel the same way? What are people's judgements of who you are based upon? Should you be concerned about what people think of you? In a corporate world we are taught to accept and learn from feedback both spoken and un, but doesn't chasing the corporate ideal take you farther from who you are and closer to something you swore you'd never be? So here lies the crux of the matter you can sell yourself for positions, power, fame and more pay, or you can starve, or achieve less than controlling your destiny or both. At least that's the way the anachronistic, Jello Biafra, John Lydon, Joe Strummer fan in me feels, it's a real conundrum. So can you improve yourself, or maybe a better question is, can you afford not to?

So probably going over to Asia at least twice again in 2007, gotta get those trips planned or they'll get planned for me and I don't want that.

Merry Christmas and PO Monte!

Please forgive this selfish question.

God what a flippin glorious day, slow day of computer operation and coffee abuse. Come home to a manically hyper squad of kids, and a sick wife, gotta love it.

Tomorrow is hoop again, which is sweet in my imagination and book for that matter.

Did I mention I saw Borat? It is good, see it, I gotta check out Ricky Bobby, as Sacha is in that as well.

So last night I got to go ringing the bells at Walmart for charity, made some observations about people, looked like there were three types of people, those who donated, those who just walk by and keep their eyes averted, and those who smile and wish ringers a Merry Christmas, kind of wierd about the averted eye types, like they are ashamed, of something, but I am not sure what?

Last thought, I have this recurring thing I think about whenever corporate leadership changes, another school year passes, a load of people get on a plane and fly off somewhere, I am driving down a highway with everyother freak trying to get somewhere as fast as I can, we're all just like waves washing up on some beach, might move some sand, not a lot, probably not a noticeable amount to any passerby, but after 15000 waves of similar types and energy maybe we can make a noticeable difference. To me this speaks to the inability of individuals to influence, lead large meaningful changes, it takes a large concerted effort by many like minded peeps.

So, paradoxically, how does one person or small group make change so effectively? Is it preparation and opportunity coming together in a perfect storm? What about the person who realizes the opportunity and makes the most of it?

Pretty heavy I know, but whilst sitting in airports, this is where my little pea brain goes....

So, my football team made the playoffs, that's good, gotta play the god awful muthafuckinest hard team in the league, they got LaDainian and so I am a decided underdog.

Next post I think I'll talk about personal improvement and meaningful personal change, is it perception or can it truly happen?

PO MONTEEEEEEEE!